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just alittle promoting [21 Jul 2004|07:43pm]
[ mood | bored ]

If anyone has a greatest journal. www.greatestjournal.com

you all should join my Tim Armstrong community. Its still in the making process. But I would love to have members. I set up a simple layout and a simple Icon. But hopefully soon there will be a much better layout and probably the same icon. But Im looking for members.

click the link below

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[14 Jun 2004|03:59am]
[ mood | chipper ]

This is so true, almost all of it. What do you guys think?

What Color is Your Brain?

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At work or in school: I need to be "hands on": I like to play games, to compete, and to perform. I enjoy flexibility, changes of pace, and variety. I have difficulty with routine and structure. My favorite subjects are music, art, theatre, and crafts. I often excel in sports. I like solving problems in active ways and negotiating for what I want. I can be direct and like immediate results.

With friends: Planning ahead bores me because I never know what I want to do until the moment arrives. I like to excite my friends with new and different things, places to go, and romantic moments.

With family: I need a lot of space and freedom. I want everyone to have fun. It is hard for me to follow rules, and I feel we should all just enjoy one another.

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took a test thingy! [13 Jun 2004|06:29am]
[ mood | cranky ]


Name / Username:

Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com

This is kind of right yes or no? That is directed to the people who know me.
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[10 Jun 2004|09:11pm]
[ mood | crappy ]


Knew update here, people on my friends list can add it if they want, and I will decide who I will add back. Its my journal but its more personal then this.

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OMG a update from ME! [09 Jun 2004|12:47am]
[ mood | exhausted ]

Oh wow a update. Lets hope this doesn't fuck up, like my update over at wwww.greatestjournal.com did.

Anyways, so im on
31 hours and 30 minutes of no sleep.

So if this update is weird, oh well forgive me, no sleep is not a good idea.

So today my friend and I walked up to target to see if I could find the knew Cold-year of the spider- and SHIT, no luck. I really want that cd back, because COLD are awesome. I got to meet Scooter(singer) and I was in heaven. WAY nicer band the KoRn.

I hope someone can either buy me that cd, send it to me, or I can find it. Because that cd means so much to me. If not for the songs on that album, and on every other cold album, boom i'd be dead.

so after target and borders, sicne they both didn't have it. My friend bought me the punk-o-rama cd, it features bands such as; Bad Religion, From First to Last, The Matches, Atmosphere, Pennywise, Motion City Soundtrack, Rancid, Dropkick Murphys, The Weakerthans, Matchbook Romance, Scatter the Ashes, Refused, Nekromantix, Pulley, 1208, The Bouncing Souls, Hot Water Music, The Special Goodness, Horrorpops, Tiger Army, Division of Laura Lee, Error, Eyedea & Abilities, Death by Stereo. And also came with a dvd, with the videos by the; The Bouncing Souls, Horrorpops, Atmosphere, Pulley, 1208, Matchbook Romance, Motion City Soundtrack, The Weakerthans, Randy, The Special Goodness, and Converge.

I've never heard most of those, and I haven't listened to the cd yet, so hopefully it is good. Next cd I buy if I can't find the Cold cd, is the Warped tour 04 cd.

On the way home, we got chips and energy dranks, I got a little can of starbucks coffee, YUMMY, and a RedBull, and the fritoes, and Nacho Cheese doritoes.

Oh yeah, while walking home, I decided this time its for good, im QUITING, no more smoking. Its fucking up my breathing, DUH, and its starting to give me headaches, and my throat hurts, and stomach starts to hurt for awhile after I smoke. I tried once already but I wasn't serious, this time I am. I smoked my last ciggarette, about 3 hours ago. WISH ME LUCK.

Oh another thing, my birthday was May 29th. I can't believe you people who ever reads this journal FORGOT. LOL its alright everyone else did. I only got two phone calls, my step dad becuase my brother reminded him that it was my birthday. And then my cousin Kristy called, so that was cool, she calls me on my birthday every year. MY MOM didn't call, maybe she was busy, or figures since I barely call her, she doesn't have to call me.

In other updates, I will update about my grandparets, my cat, my boyfriend, and other school skipping tales.


EDIT: I made my new layout, isn't it pretty. Tim Armstrong is one of the sexiest men in the world. Ignore is weird freind, I just think his eyes are pretty there. But Tim is a cutie bear in the picture.
-sighs- teeny beeny moment is now over.

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Sat School, borders/target and cds!!! [18 Apr 2004|03:26am]
[ mood | drained ]

April 17th, 2004

Friday I came home from school, and fell asleep on my friend, Arhtur (bitch's) house and fell asleep on his couch from 4 till 7. So I was well rested, and then I didn't sleep at all, well Saturday I aws sopposed to have sat school, and since I didn't really know where to go I wondered around the empty locked school, till I saw my friend Jessica, and talked to her, till one of my teachers showed up, I asked him and nope, not in the theater or cafiteria. So I went back outside to find my friend Jessica and just walk around with her, she was there because they were having something called 'Mock Saturday.' Which is just were kids come out and clean up the school. So im looking for Jessia still and bump into Mrs. Rich(an adminstrator) and she ask's me what im doing, 'Mock Saturday and or SAT's ." I saw neither and then she told me to sign up for Moch Saturday and I also got free food.

Jessica and I cleaned from 8 till 9:30, then we went off campus to the side of the school, so I could have a cigg and eat. Some black guys started messing with us, but oh well. After that we walked back and through something in the trash and I got another bisquiet so I put that in a Martin's bag. Then we walked around, and sat at a gas station that was above the student parking lot. We sat there, talking about personal shit, that I haven't told many people, beceaue the first 2 people, being family didn't beleive me. Oh well, we did that till 12, then walked over to the pizza place. We hung out in there for a little while. As we were walking out, so Corey and I could have a cigg, my friend Clint(Cockless Cum) rides by on his bike and yells "Jesus.." and I was like "cockless Cum."

After that we all went down to borders, whole plane was to walk in and get some cds, and we stole them. So we went down to borders, and walked around, I grabbed three Ramones cd, and gave them to Cockless Cum (clint) and his friend Mark. Clint had about 5 cds in his hand, he took that little sticker off the back of them and then went to the bathroom to open them up, but when he went back there, he set off the alarm, he told the lady that, they just went off and he dropped the cds on the water fountain and sped walked back to us. So they took my three Ramones cds and opened them right there in the store, hidden inbetween there bodies. They stuck the cds in there back pockets and then we left the store.

We went to his house, where we hung out in Clint's room and listened to music and heard my boyfriend play Clints guitar. Then we hung out in the living room of Clint's house, watching music dvd's. Then Clint took a rootbeer and popped alittle whole it, causing Root Beer to go everywhere. Then he decided to take us through the woods to see a old abandoned barn. It was pretty tittie(cool) I wish I had one near my house, I would make it my hideaway. Then Clint told us about a dead body that he had found once out there near the barn, so we tried to find it again and no luck, but there was alittle old hen house from 1975, we went in there and a whole lot of old shit was in there, news papers, coke bottles, pepsi bottles and shit. Clint and I took the bottles and broke them on a peice of concrete, I LOVE BREAKING GLASS, THE NOISE IS AWESOME. After that we had to go, my boyfriend had to be back inside before 7 or he goes back to jail.

After all it was a fun Saturday.

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Just a quickie... [15 Apr 2004|02:49pm]
[ mood | amused ]

If anyone was added to Jesuslivesnsalsa, that is my knew screen name. I got tired of DarkRhapsody85 and no one really calls me Rhapsody anymore, they all know me by Jesus.

So that explains the Jesus thing.
Now the lives in Salsa, is because we were listening to that knew D12 song, and at the end, Eminem is saying something about his Salsa and that is when we were trying to think of a knew SN for me. I think its tittie.

Shanna I love you...:)

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Penny Wise concert.... [08 Mar 2004|09:41am]
[ mood | bored ]

January 21st, 2004...

Today I saw Pennywise.

Lets start from the beginning of my day.

I woke up, got dressed for school, smoked a cigg and then left for school. At school, I hung out with my friends, went to my class’s and did my work, then went home. I walked back to my step dads house, but first bought a pack of ciggs, as I was walking down his neighborhood, my brother comes out and says “You want to go to a concert?” I said yes, and his friends Josh paid for us to go.

Before we left, Josh made some popcorn chicken, we played pool and listened to music.

Around 6:30 pm, we all left to go to the masqurade. We stopped at a gas station before we got there, so one of the Josh’s could get some beer and the other Josh could get high before we went in. So while they were in the parking lot doing that, Adam and I went inside.

Adam and me got inside and stood on the side of the stage, smoking and just watching the show.

Stretch Armstrong- they were alright, kinda like a annoying punk metal band.

Mad Caddies-I like Ska, so I liked them.

But the highlight of the night was Pennywise. They came on and the crowd got wild. I was still standing to the side of the stage, smoking and bobbing my head up and down and singing the songs I knew. Adam had went into the crowd.

The whole night, I kept wishing for my favorite song to be played and damn it it happened.
The singer said, “This ones for the president, for security, for the police.” The whole crowd got wild again and he screamed. “Fuck Athority.” I got up and jumped up and down and still smoking and singing . When he said Fuck Authority almost everyone threw up there middle fingers.

For the last song, some people got to get up onstage and sing with the band. Then after the show was over as they were cleaning the stage off, I asked one of them for the sign ‘Bands and times.’
Hanging on the side of the stage. I wanted the set list, but oh well.

It was a really cool show and it was my first punk show.

I didn’t go to school the next day and that’s when I started skipping my 4th period class. Now I only skip on certain Fridays.

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Moved, X-Mas, New Years.... [05 Mar 2004|10:55am]
[ mood | blah ]

Everyone should know by now that I've moved. In September I moved out of my asshole(step dads) house and moved in with my mom. It's been alright here. There's nothing to do here. It takes an hour and half to walk anywhere, to hang out. I don't have a computer anymore, basically all I do everyday is go to school, come home, play nintendo 64 or clean, or sleep. Sure I don't fight with my mom and my depression has some what stopped, I still have my days. but jesus I need a computer.

Lets see X-mas, my brother Adam spent the night. We road around looking at lights from 8:00 till 12:00, came home and went to bed watching 8 crazy nights. In the morning we woke up and went downstairs, to wait on everybody else to wake up.

My mom gave me: KoRn cd, just married dvd, Anger management dvd, and clerks dvd, some perfum, a sweater, dvd holder, cat in the hat keychain, and a gumbie t-shirt.
My step dad gave me: A broken computer, he lied to me and said it works but all I need is the internet on it, but HAHAHA its broken , its a POS, it recognizes that there is a D drive but its not reading it.

Well now my New Years, HA another depressing time. My older brother went to his girlfriends, step dad had to work, granny was at my aunts, younger brother went to a friends house and got drunk, my mom and her husband went to a concert. So ye I was all by myself. For abou 30 minutes after they left, I cried. Then spent another hour trying to fix my POS computer. Then brought music downstairs and blasted it, while eating chicken and cauler greens and drinking 7 up out of a whine glass. At 11:00 I started watching a movie, and at 12:00 I changed it to mtv to watch the ball drop, while putting together a puzzle and coloring. I went upstairs and got Kyle and we celebrated the new year together. WOW such fun. Around 2:00 my mom and her husband came home, my mom owes me a concet now, because she said if I try to have fun she'll take me to one. No one even called me, My uncle in Arizona called, but only wanted to talk to my mom, and was in shock that she wasn't there.

Things I lost last year and things I gained.

Lost: My cat, My computer, my dogs left eye, my online friends, my websites, my friends from my old neighborhood, a sopposed friend Becca, my journals online...

Gained: A friend I didnt think was one, No more stress, the ability to talk to some strangers.

Not much I've gained but whatever...

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hello, im alive..... [10 Dec 2003|08:40am]
[ mood | depressed ]

well im updating to let everyone knows that reads this anyways that Im still alive. I've moved out of my step dads house, because I was depressed and somewhat suicidal there. Im feeling much better now, I still have my days where im depressed but not suicidal thoughts anymore.

Also Im getting a computer for christmas, so that will be cool...

i love ya Shanna/ -big hugs- I will email you back when I get my computer.

P.S my cat Slater died yesterday...So im kinda sad about that...

p.p.s...Im in school using my teachers computer...

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Monday, August 25th.....CANT WAIT TILL Tomorrow!! [01 Sep 2003|01:11pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

-Horticulture-Did vocab and then colored my picture I drew of Jack Skeleton that I drew. And then slept for like 5 minutes(lol not long)
-Math-Did the warmup. Got them wrong because I couldn't see them. Then started knew drawing of Jack Skeleton. Checked homework. I only missed 6.Then we did a review for a test tomorrow(ahah I wont be here)then the coach changed my seat from the right back door to the left front door.(asshole). We got a worksheet to review for the test. I had to do a problem on the board(I hate that).
-Literature-Did opening work then, did a vocab sheet, then we went over writting shit in the book. I was a minute late to class but since she couldn't tell what door I came from, she thought the bathroom was packed so I was let off(ahaha), we went to lunch, came back finished work.
-Art- started mixing paint and started the actual painting of the background of my moral peice, and then went home boring day eh?

I found out some stuff about the guy Richard(punk rocker dude) that I like. He is in a punk rock band called Death By Ziplock(link will come later) and his fav punk band that influenced him was The Casulties. (I know I spelled it wrong)

OH yeah OZZFEST Tomorrow WOOOHOOO!!!!

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First Week Down, 2nd Week NOW!! [18 Aug 2003|05:00pm]
[ mood | amused ]


Well I made it through my first week of hell aka school. Here is alittle recape.

* Monday-11th: First day, went and got my scheldule, went to my classes, then went home. (NO WORK)
* Tuesday-12th: In all classes we read out of the Agenda and then went home.(WOW FUN)
* Wednesday-13th: Got Paper work for parents to do and then went home( OHHH SOOO MUCH FUN)
* Thursday-14th: Got more paper work, finished going over the agenda, and started to do some art in (duh) art.
* Friday-15th: Did work sheets in Horticulture, started mean, median and modes in math, did first writting in lit, and did more art in art.


Over the short weekend I spent the night over at my moms, got to hang out with my newphew, he is such a cute kid. And on sunday got ready for school all over again.

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First Week Down, 2nd Week NOW!! [18 Aug 2003|05:00pm]
[ mood | amused ]


Well I made it through my first week of hell aka school. Here is alittle recape.

* Monday-11th: First day, went and got my scheldule, went to my classes, then went home. (NO WORK)
* Tuesday-12th: In all classes we read out of the Agenda and then went home.(WOW FUN)
* Wednesday-13th: Got Paper work for parents to do and then went home( OHHH SOOO MUCH FUN)
* Thursday-14th: Got more paper work, finished going over the agenda, and started to do some art in (duh) art.
* Friday-15th: Did work sheets in Horticulture, started mean, median and modes in math, did first writting in lit, and did more art in art.


Over the short weekend I spent the night over at my moms, got to hang out with my newphew, he is such a cute kid. And on sunday got ready for school all over again.

More boring shit from me;)Collapse )

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End of Summer!! [13 Aug 2003|09:46pm]
[ mood | lazy ]

IF I Fall Back Down

OK I wanted to do this two days ago but I had no time and then the assholes shut the internet off. Well this is just a recap of my summer. This summer I had alot of fights with my step dad. I saw some movies. Started some new websites. Saw a concert, met the band. I didn't do much else this summer. Like every summer, I have no life.

You're Gonna Help Me Back Up Again

July 23rd/26th was the best night of my summer or well life as of now. I saw my 2nd favorite band live and then met them. I can still hear his voice in my ear.

IF I Fall Back Down

I saw the movies....Hulk, Charlies Angels 2, Bruce Almighty, and Pirates of the Caribbean.

You're Gonna Be My Friend

I went to the Renessance Festival too, That was cool, because I hadn't gone to that in like 3 years.

Rancid-Fall Back Down

I <3 Tim Armstrong, Jon Davis, Scooter, Captain Jack Sparrow, and Billy Martin.

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First Day of Hell aka School!! [11 Aug 2003|08:32pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

The Transplants-Tall Cans in the Air, let me see, Fuck you

I actually woke up at 6:58 am, got up and got dressed to 'The Artaris'-boys of summer and then 'Rancid'-Fall Back Down...I left for school at 7:30 am. WOW that is early for me. Well I got there and couldn't find my homeroom, they moved me from the oldgym to room 10-07. Same old assholes in there though. They didn't have my schedule so I had to go to the theater after homeroom. I got to see my friends: Bert, Derek, Robert and Joey. I sat with Robert, Bert and Derek. Robert gave me a hug and grabbed my braids and pulled my head down as a gesture to suck his dick, oh well same ol' Robert. Derek didn't even say HI to me, oh well...Well we sat there and after all classes begun here comes my homeroom teacher with MY schedule. So...I got horticulture, first, I know like 3 people in there. A girl named Cassie,April(annoying girl) A guy named Arthur and then another dude(forget his name)...well then I go to a trailer, for Intergrated Math 1, I don't know ANYONE, all of them look like assholes/thugs and bitches LOL. Well after that I go ALL THE WAY on to the 3RD floor, for 10th grade LIT. I know 3 people. My friend Jessica and then a guy named Toby and a dude named Daniel. It's not a bad class. Then I go to ART. I know 2 people, Bekkah, and a old friend who I remeber but she doesn't remember me. Oh well.

Oh well It wasn't as bad as I thought it was. I just hate the fact that I have to wake up every morning from Monday to Friday at 6:58 AM, for the next 8 months. But I do still feel the same way as I wrote my loc_lov Journal. I also saw Joey and gave him a hug, I saw Lee and gave him a hug, and Daniel Newman(lol he shaved his head)well gave him a hug.

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pictures [10 Aug 2003|12:36am]
[ mood | crappy ]

Pictures of the hidden Grave yard, I learned more about it, people actually died there, it was when a war happend and people died on it, and they didn't bury some of the bodies. Sad Sad place.

Also have pictures of The Old mills, a war took place here too.

Also a picture of "The Echo Bridge/tunnel" its a cool tunnel, you get in and it echos really loud and alot.

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2003-movies,movies,movies [09 Aug 2003|04:31pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

-darkness Falls-3:25pm-Friday-1/24/03 (Saw it with Adam. It was alright reminded me alittle of The Ring. 7/10)

-Just Married-3:15-Friday-2/14/03 (Saw it with Adam and my 'bestfriend' Jamie when they were dating. It's a cute movie, Ashton and Britney both my fav actors. 8/10

-DareDevil-8:00pm-Sunday-3/2/03 (Step dad took Adam and me to see it. It was very good. Better then Spiderman, X-men and The Hulk. 10/10....Then about a week later step dad took, Robert*uncle* and Adam and me, to see it again. And a week later, my cousin Kristy took me to see it, before the movie started the screen froze for about 10 minutes, oh well.

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Movies, Movies, Movies in 2002 [30 Jul 2003|04:30am]
[ mood | artistic ]

I've seen alot more but these are from my movie ticket stub collection I started last yr.

-Mothman Prophecies-4:45pm-Saturday-1/26/02 (My cousin took me to see it, and it was very very good. 1-10 I give it a 9.)

-Queen of the Damned-3:55pm-Friday-2/22/02 (took adam to see it. We skipped school and saw it, seeing JD on screen was cute and funny, well I gave the movie a 6 and the music a 10)

-QOTD-2pm-Friday-2/29/02 (cousin took me to see it)
-QOTD-3/7/02 (then my cousin took me, adam and her boyfriend to see it)

-Spiderman-10:05pm-Thursday-5/9/02 (step dad took me and Adam to see it, me gives it a 7 out of 10)

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Alittle update about Tuesday [24 Jul 2003|06:42pm]
[ mood | cranky ]

Monday, brother and I went on the silver commet trail. I got the pictures of the hidden Graveyard and a cool echo bidge, and the old mills. There was a war there.

On the way home, since I was feeling like I was going to pass out, I had to stop every mile or so. So Adam(asshole) went on without me, oh well it was peaceful. When I got home I took a shower and then ate and waited for my peeps to get online. Shannon got online and well I guess I wasn't in a talking mood so I went and layed down and fell asleep from 12:30 to 2 am. Then got back online updated my site and went to a yahoo group still fighting there. Oh well.

also....Oh My dope_fiend Took me off her friends list. She also blocked me on msn and aim. Oh well guess she was never my "fiend" I never commented in her/your journal because we all have problems and well I go though mine EVERYday and when I get online I would rather just leave all that shit behind. So I don't really like reading about them over and over again. Also you say you hate it when ppl ask you about your problems then why write about them? Also I could give a SHIT about the song meanings. I just want you to be honest with me, if you were never going to send or you dont know them then tell me that. For a month and a half, everytime I asked you would say, I will send tonight or that you were going to tell me, but you never did. But whatever I've wasted too much space already on this....Funny how fast you dropped the "friendship" but ah when you were getting the internet taking away from you. I was truly going to miss you but whatever then...BYE

oh and

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Finally a update!! [21 Jul 2003|02:08am]
[ mood | blah ]

Why can't you look, why can't you look at me, see what I see.

On the 10th my step dad and I went to the mall and saw the movie 'Charles Angels 2' *coughCornycough* and then we walked around for while, then we ate CHINESE FOOD *coughbestfoodouttherecough* and then we came back home. And It started to STORM really bad, so I fell asleep and then later got online and updated one of my sites.

Why can't you feel, why can't you feel like me, feel like I do.

On the 11th I had nothing to do so I slept all day, played video games, and then got online.

Why can't you hurt, why can't you hurt like me, taste the pain I feel.

On the 12th my brother and I rode our bikes to the silver comete trail. We rode probably about 10 or so miles from austell road to maxel/mavil road. We are going to take pictures next time we go, pics of a hidden graveyard, the old mills, and a swamp.

Why must I die, why must I die for you, its the ugly truth

On the 13th had another LAZY DAY

July 14th Step dad took my brother and me to see Pirates of the Caribbean. WOW that movie was AWESOME. Johnny Depp was AMAZING. He was funny,witty,smart,dumb,retarded,drunk,gay....He was great even if you hate pirate movies or just the movie itself you will love it because of Captain Jack Sparrow. Orlando Bloom was awesome too. So good I saw it again last friday and then I might see it again this friday. GO SEE IT IF YOU HAVEN'T!!!

As for the 20th Did nothing all day but got taco bell for dinner and two DVDS. Just married and The Hot Chick. They were really funny movies. Later today my brother and I might go bike riding again to get those pictures.

Well its ugly, its making me painless

Also im kinda talking to AMY again on msn *shrugs* we'll see how that goes.
Im suffocating, come suffer with me

*Crying* The Warped Tour is coming on Wednesday and I don't get to go.

P.S Im starting a new community on LJ about Billy Martin

P.P.S thanks Shanna for linking my new background, isn't it sweet and thanks for the ICON TOO.

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